Trigger warning. I am suicidal. It's all I think about. I'm
Trigger warning. I am suicidal. It's all I think about. I'm two years into a divorce and my daughters haven't talked to me in two years. They are 21 and 25. My wife has poisoned them about me. I can't deal with it anymore. I sat in my garage with my car running and doors closed. I made it 10 minutes and I chickend out.
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Destiny2020
Destiny2020
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Just a person struggling with life looking for some support and to support others who are also strug…
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Nov 18
@Supertech
Dude for the longest time I thought you were gone. I had messaged you on your last post and when you stopped replying after mentioning your suicide plan I was worried. While I’m sad to hear you’re still in a rough place I’m relieved to see as of now that you’re still alive. I get the whole dancing on the edge, and almost rehearsing suicide to build up the courage to follow through.
@Destiny2020 Thank you so much for your concern. I don't use these forums a lot because I get more depressed sometimes. Things were going well for a while. Now it's close to the holidays and so depressed my daughters still haven't reached out to me
Destiny2020
Destiny2020
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Just a person struggling with life looking for some support and to support others who are also strug…
(3580)
Nov 19
@Supertech
I’m sorry about your family situation. I know about the holidays. It makes everything harder especially when alone and having depression. I’m sure you have already done this, but have you reached out to your daughters? Sent them a text or something in the mail? Even if they were to ignore you, you can rest a little easier knowing you did everything you could and let them know that you will always love them, and can leave an address or whatever for them to reach out to you when ready. If you no longer have their numbers or emails maybe you know someone who does? Someone who could deliver your message or mail for you? I don’t know the full circumstances, nor will I ask you the details, but if I was really angry at my dad for whatever reason and decided to ignore him, if he overtime seemed truly changed or made clear genuine efforts to tell me he was sorry or that he loved me, I would come back to him. I for a brief time was estranged and not on speaking terms with my family but after time alone I was able to self reflect and realized I wanted them in my life still and loved them very much. I hope they come to realize how important you are to be in their lives. Just say your peace, offer your love and support and put the next move in their hands. You’ve done all that you could and no one can blame you.
