Honestly thought I had a handle on my feelings but discovere
Honestly thought I had a handle on my feelings but discovered again I really don't.
I'm afraid it is something you just have to keep working on. It is easy enough to be calm and confident when everything is going well, but much harder when something bad happens. If it happens suddenly you don't have time to get yourself together and the shock can last for a while. However, there are coping strategies for many of life's common anvil-drops. Keep looking; keep talking to people; keep asking for help & advice. You can get there.