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Am I a bad girl if I watch techniques of intimacy? Not porn

Arora's picture
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Am I a bad girl if I watch techniques of intimacy?
Not porn... The videos where they explain and sometimes even demonstrate what to do and how to do... I only watched about kissing for now... I'm not exactly sure why but I keep remembering the time I spent with my bf (ex)... And I keep wondering what went wrong... Maybe that's the trigger... Until now, I thought that if I get into a relationship, the man will teach me what to do and how to do... Bcs that's how all the novels are written, right? But, after my experience, I feel like I need to know what to do and when to do and when to stop and all... For some reason, I got convinced that every man will be like my ex, who will have no idea what they're doing...but still boast about their skills... Now, I feel resentment towards everyone... I even doubt Edward now... Edward is the name I gave to my dreamboy by the way, who is present only in my mind...

Anyway, the point is... I feel that I should know about these things on one hand... On the other, I also feel that I'm a bad bad girl for wanting and trying to know about these things... That if - and that's a very big if - if, I ever get into another relationship again...or rather marry someone (because it's India)... If that happens, what if the man thinks that I'm a bad girl? What if he thinks I'm not....I don't know how to put it into words... What if he looks down on me because I learned these things? Even worse... What if he knows nothing and doesn't even put any effort to learn and I start resenting him too? There are so many what ifs running around in my head... I don't know what to do...

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Littlesis7's picture
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Sep 25

@chaoticjoy3 Sorry, that last part was obviously meant for Arora, but who knows since this was from July? lol

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Arora's picture
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Sep 26

@Littlesis7 Hello... Thank you for the sweet words... I'm still active here... But not a regular like I used to be... I get notifications through mail and I do check this site every now and then....

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Arora's picture
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Sep 26

Friends, I thank each and every one of you who bothered to read my post and took the time to reply and help me out... I'm going through a lot and I don't know how much control I have on my emotions... I didn't reply to your comments bcs I didn't want to lash out at anyone bcs of my emotional state and lose people who wanted to help me... I'm trying to sort things out...pretty difficult I know....but still I'm trying.... And as a first step, I wanted to get my PG seat and continue my studies... I'm trying hard to prepare for my exam which will be held in January.... I'm not really successful at preparation but.... Anyway, I just kept all my issues aside for the time being.... Once I get my PG seat, I'll start working on my issues again...

I had no idea people care whether I reply to their comment or not... I didn't think anyone cares enough... I'm so sorry if I hurt you... And thank you sooo much for helping me out... U guys are wonderful like always...

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