I'm feeling rough today. I'm still dealing with satan. It's
I'm feeling rough today. I'm still dealing with satan. It's been going on for 9 years and 6 months. I just been dealing with him tormenting me. I just want him gone. I want to go back to school. satan always make me take breaks. I just want to study. I really do. But he makes me take breaks. If I study for 15 minutes, he would make me take a 5 minute break. I just been talking to myself. I just want to do better. I just think about food. My family is baking ribs in the oven, and I'm starving for some. it's been cooking for almost 3 hours, and I want to try some. And then my Great Aunt's Funeral is January 3rd, 2020. And I'm nervous about that. A lot of family will be there. And I get self-conscious about that. I just need people to talk to. I just deal with lots of alone time. I also been having trouble sleeping. And then because time goes by too slow, I have to talk to myself. I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't see my Therapist until January 11, 2020.
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An update for today. I'm still feeling rough. I'm still dealing with satan. It's rough. I need to exercise. I need to get my refills on my medicine. Hopefully, I can do that tomorrow. I see my Psychiatrist on January 19th. Please pray that it is a face to face session. I love talking to him. I still have 303 days left of satan. I just want him out of my life. And he just talks to me. I see my Medical Doctor on February 16th. And I can't wait. I just have to stop drinking so much sugar. I'm trying to drink water. I just need to get to October 31, 2021. I want to be free from satan. I get tired and lethargic, and I don't feel like getting up. I also have trouble sleeping. I do a lot of tossing and turning in the bed. I just want satan gone. I really do. Please pray that he goes away.
An update for today. I'm still feeling rough. I'm still dealing with satan. It's rough. I been eating. I been doing a lot of eating. I was stress eating. It happened because I miss my Cousin, Dave. He's studying for the Bar exam. I love to hear from him. I just been dealing with loneliness. I just have to overcome satan. I need him gone. I really do. And I have 298 days left of him. I had just now, and it's 7:53 p.m., Lasagna, Rotisserie chicken, chicken nuggets, and cran apple juice. I was exercising most of the day. And I just had that urge to eat. I want to be strong like you. I really do. And, satan keeps talking to me. And I just have to keep losing weight. So, I'm just trying. I need to see my Psychiatrist. He is the best!
An update for today. I'm still feeling rough. I'm still dealing with satan. I have 291 days left of satan. I do a lot of eating. It's hard on me. I just go through a lot. I need to keep losing weight. I need your prayers. I'm so nervous about Thresholds Zoom Group. It's at 12 noon, my time. And I'm extremely nervous. I rather keep talking to you all. I just hate satan. And I need to get rid of him. And, now a Thresholds caseworker wants me to get a Thresholds peer phone number. I'm so nervous. We have Zoom Groups over the phone. And I just wished my financial situation was better. satan makes me give my Disability check to my mom. So, please pray that I can overcome these groups today.
