Today is arough day. I had some dreams lastnight that just b

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Today is arough day. I had some dreams lastnight that just brought to the surface every emotion I've spent years burying. I'm trying to work, and got 100% on last week's speech, but I'm sitting in front of the computer trying not to cry. Not a very good job. This is how I feel, all the time, every day. I feel like my hearts been ripped out, but I'm still trying to live and pretend like I'm fine. I'm not though. Who do i go to, who do i talk to, how do I fix it? I am a fighter, so I'll always keep pushing forward, but I want to be happy. I don't want to just "survive" life, I want to LIVE it! I want to enjoy it. Not just get through each day. It's starting to affect my daughter too now, she's starting to ask me why I don't play, or why I don't seem happy. I wanted to try and be at a healthier point before she was this old. Old enough to notice. I guess I'm fed up. I'm fed up with being haunted by old nightmares that have ended, but haven't ended inside me. I'm fed up with being broken...

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Oct 14

I have a healing room in my house I go there to relax

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Oct 14

@mandyblue I also set it up for a friend who came to visit who has PTSD . It has native art, candles, a bible, ptsd books, incense, a buddha, crystals, books on energy, angels etc. for whatever you use to heal

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Oct 14

@mandyblue That is an awesome idea! My house is basically one small room, so that's not doable for me. But I do try to incorporate healing colors and things wherever I can. Like the "kitchen" is highlighted with a happy shade of blue. It does actually make a small difference.

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