I’m at my wits end. I’ve always suspected I had OCD but

I’m at my wits end. I’ve always suspected I had OCD but in the last year after a series of triggering events my symptoms became more pronounced and I’m getting treatment with a higher dose of lexapro. I feel like this illness has taken over my life and sucked the joy out of everything. My mind races a 100 miles an hour and it won’t stop. My current obsession is relationships. I get extremely upset seeing couples together, real or fictional, I go into panic. I’m compelled to try to find a partner even to my detriment. It’s all i can think about. I check my phone and dating apps looking for reassurance that I’m worthy of love. It’s this horrible feedback loop where nothing helps and i feel panic and self loathing all the time. I’ve stopped talking to my best friend because she’s in a relationship and i can’t bear to hear her talk about it. I’ve tried but I would just obsess and ruminate and it was causing a lot of negative energy. I feel like I’ll never be healthy enough to get into an actual relationship if this doesn’t stop . I need help

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RedBeldam's picture
May 29

Maybe you could read about how anxiety works. Or you could read a self-help book on OCD. My #1 recommendation is 'You Are Not A Rock' by Mark Freeman.
He basically teaches you that it's okay to have anxiety. It's an emotion you're allowed to have because you're human. I know right now that you're probably so anxious all the time that you can't think straight, and you might think that the rest of your life will be like this. But I promise that with help, it does get better. And you can take that from somebody who has OCD.
Good luck on this healing process and take care of yourself.

KidDJ's picture
May 29

Hey, I primarily have sexual obsessions, but I do understand that it's emotionally exhausting and frustrating. When I have Sexual Orientation OCD, I just feel like I'm not meant to have a husband (I'm heterosexual) and that I will always be like this until death. I can assure you that it does get better over time, but recovery is a very slow process. It just doesn't happen over night. You need to learn to manage your anxiety and obsessions all together.

mmadlecl's picture
May 29

Classclown I tried taking Lexapro for my anxiety. Although my friend takes it for her anxiety disorder, It was not well tolerated by me. I take a very small amount of bupropion once a day and it helps. My son has a panic disorder. He takes Zoloft with bupropion and he says it helps him. Practicing mindfulness also help me.


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