I'm going to keep focused on positive things: being producti

Blueberries1234's picture
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I'm going to keep focused on positive things: being productive, and dig myself out of the hole I have created for myself. It doesn't matter what happened anymore or how I got here. I just have to get myself out. Goal: This week, call all the agencies to ask them for help making a resume for entry level social media or graphic design positions. Help me figure out if or how I can branch into the fields. Today: Make a resume for mental health, and another for graphic design. Just try. I miss working at my old job, in mental health, so I contacted my supervisor and I really hope she allows me to come by, even if it's just a few shifts I think I can really use the money and perhaps they will benefit from me being there. I'm not sure, but I can try. I'm just going to keep saying that: I'm going to try. I'm going to humble myself and try. Even if everyone hates me, even if people don't like me, even if my mom who has narcissism comes back, even if my sister says I shouldn't go back to my old job----it wasn't my job that made me miserable-----it was my home life. Let's be honest. I loved my job, most of the time. It gave me money, it gave me the ability to choose, it gave me the ability to eat food without feeling guilty or indebted or unwanted. Like a burden. Living here, even though my sister is amazing, and even though Im sick, every day I know how she feels resentment towards me. And every day I feel like a burden and it's made me feel absolutely hopeless, like I wish I was dead every day. I want a job so that I don't have to be home as much, and so I can eat some food and drink a coffee without guilt.

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Littlesis7's picture
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Aug 4

Well my first response glitched out. I really like the way you think, wish I could think like that more often. You are super inspiring me.
I need to ask you what is entry level Social media -what kind of job is that exactly? Do you need a degree for it? It's great that you are able to write out your plans and goals in spite of the situation you're in. It sounds like you would really benefit from going back to your old job.
Sorry you felt like a burden and so low. I've lived thru days of just wanting and being able to go out and buy what i wanted when I knew I couldn't. They made me lose all my independence.
Hope that works out for you and you are abele to do something you like with confidence.
Please keep sharing your story.
You helped me today.

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Blueberries1234's picture
(61970)
Aug 9

@Littlesis7 Im glad if my words helped you a bit, honestly I did make my resume for mental health, but my supervisor ignored my message to her completely. Then I helped a family member by making 5 resumes for them... and I have been so stressed out i stopped eating so now Im experiencing fibromyalgia flare ups again, so just going to get back to resume making tomorrow afger making meals today. just keep trying and gettingbback on the horse. For social media coordinators, I think that you can do free courses like google analytics, and look at the job requirements. Try searching for internships! Or assistant social media coordinator positions if you're just starting out. I think you can branch into it from receptionist work, maybe? I think a lot of skills are transferrable, it's somewhere between reception, marketing and graphic design. I think.

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Littlesis7's picture
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Aug 9

@Blueberries1234 sorry you've been that stressed out -I know you'll get back on the horse. Thanks for listing the different titles and areas for this, good to know.

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