I screwed up royally yesterday with NC. My ex narc has been

I screwed up royally yesterday with NC. My ex narc has been love bombing the hell out of his new girlfriend on social media. I had him blocked on twitter – but I decided to make a tweet subliminally about him and unblock him. I know this is horrible, but people we both follow were retweeting and liking it and I wanted him to see it. I just wrote something along the lines of “people who flunked out of college are more excited for homecoming than the actual alumni” not exactly those words. I also tried to play it off by saying “this person is 29 years old” my ex narc is 28. This is something I know he is kind of sensitive about. (Or at least I think he is) He is one of those guys who never finished college but was in a fraternity and since that was the only importance he ever had in life any excuse to go back to campus he jumps at the opportunity.
So I posted that and after 2 hours and he never said anything – but then suddenly he posted his girlfriend on IG as his woman crush. No big deal – it was Wednesday lol and he had been love bombing her all day pretty much. I’m not sure if he saw my tweet or not before that. However I doubt it. I then went to his page and liked one of his retweets and I guess it alerted him. He then blocked me. I haven’t said or posted anything else.
How horribly did I screw up? I know that I probably gave him exactly the attention he wanted. He now knows for sure that I had been looking at his page which I’m sure is a huge ego boost. How can I get over this extreme hate for him? I know I’m trying to achieve an unachievable task – getting revenge on someone who doesn’t care. It’s just somedays I am just so angry with him and this situation. I wish I could let it go and just ignore him and move on :/ although in the moment it made me feel better like “haha! And I know he’s pissed people are agreeing.” But in the end who’s to say he even read the tweet? Who’s to say he just didn’t block me? Also in the end I again let him win 

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[895]
Oct 12

@jadedtothesoul thank you I am trying. I just feel so stupid because it's like I had the power and gave it to him.

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I am really working on not letting the narc occupy much of my energy. It's not easy but I find when I let go of those thoughts I start to heal. The more I think about all the crazy making we both did, the more those wounds are active. Sometimes to heal something you have to stop paying attention to it completely. I just got rid of all of my self help books, and plan not to invest any more energy into figuring out any of the traits or related dynamics ... it's time to heal myself, and that comes from within.

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[895]
Oct 12

@gettingstronger123 that's true as well I feel as if I spend so much time trying to figure him out and I never will.

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