Hi everyone I'm new to this site so please bear with me. Few

Hi everyone I'm new to this site so please bear with me. Few months ago I have discovered that my boyfriend is a narcissist. We were together for almost a year and it is now that I'm starting to understand what was going on in the relationship. I was so madly in love with him but he was just using me for his own pleasure. While I thought we were exclusive and in a long term relationship he kept seeing other girls and sleeping with his exes ,his collegues, everything that moves in his surroundings. He even once came clean and told me about one of them,said it meant nothing and it's me that he loves but it drove me crazy and haunted me for weeks, but I eventually stayed with him. He hated my friends, my family and tried to isolate me from them, get me to move in with him really quickly and control my finances but I managed to keep my appartment and independancy , despite the pressure he put on me.
I burst into tears whenever I remember how much I cared for him and invested in the relationship and how much verbal,and emotional abuse he put me through, he even made me do his work while he goes out to sleep with an other woman pretending he has an other project working on but it's later on that I found out the truth .. It didn't stop there he tried to sabotage my career because he knew how attached I am to my work. I was working on a promotion that could possibly bring me a lot of money, and I was in a financial crisis so I needed it so bad. I worked so hard for it and he knew how much I wanted it so he got nastier with every day , tried to distract from work picking fights and arguments all the time , showing up at my work and my place everyday , calling me even when I'm working just to throw in some nasty comments and drive me mad. When I eventually didn't get the promotion and told him on the phone, I was in tears and devastated ,all he said it's ok with a happy tone and didn't even bother to show up for support. That moment I knew what kind of monster I was dealing with I couldn't let him ruin what's rest of my life. I ended things with him, I quit my job, moved away , blocked him on email , social network and phone. I have been free from this monster for 2 months now , I know he's trying to find my new adress and contact me through our friends , stalking me on facebook, on instagram and wants back his narcissistic supply. All I want is to gain back control, and never have to deal with him ever again .. I'm just having hard time to put my life back together I want to do so many things , go see a therapist, do yoga , find a new job but end up doing none of it , I can't find the energy to bounce back but I'm determined to.
If you please have been in my shoes before please tell me how did you cope with such a trauma, how did you manage to get back on track I need some guidance on how to heal emotionally and physically from this. How do I get my energy, and will back to stand up and move on with my life.

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[14365]
Jul 18

@Letting go...... Really not long. Don't get me wrong I did hurt and suffer for a while but really found it much easier than I thought it would be. I just kept on going. Like you, the end misery and the grand finale are just too much evil. Really evil stuff that can be hard to get out of your head but I got rid of him in July and the divorce proceedings did not actually happen until November of that year. I can honestly say that I can remember being quite happy and elated before that date even arrived. The worst was a few weeks and an occasional twinge for a while. But I bounced back pretty quickly and that's pretty good considering I'm an emotional person but he was so evil and I was so glad to get rid of him and the drama. I had no room or no use for that kind of crap in my life so I was ready to move on. Of course, as a teacher starting back after that July was quite helpful for me and my coworkers were happy I got rid of the creepy weirdo. You just keep living. I'm proud that you are doing so well. You'll be great and you'll love it.

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Jul 18

@kelly72 Thank you. For me, he crossed a line that was my wake up call. Everyday since then, I think, "how bad would I have to hate myself to stay in a relationship with someone so evil." It's hard when your self-esteem has taken such a battering, but whether I feel it or not I choose to love myself. I'm getting there, I feel it and my friends see it.

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[14365]
Jul 18

@Letting go...... Your statement really resonates with me. That is why I ask many on here "what does it take?" or "how far are you going to let this go when you know he (or she) will not change?", etc. I think we should start a thread on some of the most evil things, cross the line things, that they've done. Maybe that will help some to see they need to leave abusive relationships because they can look at where it's going. I'm so all for seeing people narc free.

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