Hi this is my first time posting here. I'm not sure how acti

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Hi this is my first time posting here. I'm not sure how active these support groups are. I don't know what's been wrong with me lately, but I've been crying off and on for a few weeks straight, feeling an incredible sadness and loneliness. It doesn't make sense because I have a husband and two kids. But I guess I'm sad about how we are all growing older and my kids are teens and don't need Mom as much anymore. My husband is busy with work and I haven't worked for 11 years due to a genetic condition I have that is extremely painful all day long. I don't have any friends, feel like I have no purpose, etc. When I start thinking of my kids moving out on there own I feel a profound sadness. I will miss them so much. They aren't just my kids, but also my close friends. I know it isn't fair to them and of course I want them to have their own lives and be happy in the future, but I just remember when they were young and how I felt like they'd be my babies forever. I'm scared they will grow up and forget about me :( I'm not sure why I think that, we have good relationships. I just seem to me mourning sad moments that haven't happened in my life yet. Like if my husband dies before I do.

I've always been a very empathetic person, to the point of mourning over total strangers and feeling for the loved ones they left behind.

My dog of 16 years died last year on New Years Day. We held her as she struggled to breathe and took her last breath. It was terrible. We have a new dog now, she's a year old now, and I dread the day she dies. They become such a part of you.

Aging and death is a part of life, yes, but I'm not handling the inevitable pain and loss very well. Is something wrong with me?

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LovingSoul's picture
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Mar 10

@Jc316 thanks Jc. I tried to reply two separate times to your first post and this site must be having issues because my posts aren't showing up! It's so frustrating.

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Mar 10

@LovingSoul lol not a problem. You reached out and I appreciate that.. I had some problems with the site too. I had to make an account about 4 times.

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HappyxVibes's picture
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Mar 27

I’m SO sorry for your loss. Dogs are the best because they don’t judge you and they are loyal. As for your kids, you should do more activities with them like a camping night, going somewhere COVID safe, etc.

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