I just realized something. Before the HOCD (or what I think
I just realized something. Before the HOCD (or what I think is HOCD) started I never had the urge to look at gay pprn or anything. It's only after and I believe that is becahse it is not an attraction but a compulsive behavior. I would much rather watch a girl but joe the fact that I watched it is just eating me alive in general and I can't get passed it. Like it all started with me seeing a guy and saying wow that guy is a good looking dude and all the sudden I freaked out. So dumb honestly
Porn and HOCD is not a good combo, regardless of the genre.
Literally me, but I don't have that compulsive behavior