Hey guys. Since my last therapy session it feels more and mo

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Hey guys. Since my last therapy session it feels more and more real than I am bi. My problem is that it feels like I have a crush on my best friend. It feels like there is too little anxiety to be fake. It feels like I genuinely like her and want to be with her but I cringe st the thought. She’s not pretty and she’s hung over her ex gf yet talking to another guy. I love her as a friend. But why does it feel like I like her??? I keep getting thoughts of not being able to admit it that it’s ok to have a crush as long as u don’t act bc ur in a relationship (but then I worry bc then that would mean I would have a crush on a girl and then that means I would not be straight) that I’m not letting myself enjoy it (like my therapist said) it feels as though i never had ocd like the whole time it was a lie and now I feel nothing no anxiety no disgust just these stupid fluttery feelings and if I’m on meds and I feel like this it must be real and I hate it

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SimonaAlex's picture
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Jan 21

@hal133 But you don't feel comfortable with those thoughts?

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(11170)
Jan 26

@SimonaAlex no they make me so uncomfortable:/

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SimonaAlex's picture
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Jan 26

@hal133 If you're uncomfortable by the idea of being gay/bi, this means you're not.

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