My son died 18 years ago and it seems that every day of that
My son died 18 years ago and it seems that every day of that, my guilt over the horrible father I was to him rips me inside. I guess I'll feel this way the rest of my life.
@cherrycake I'm so sorry for your loss and the fact she was so young. You take good care of yourself because that's what mothers want most of all. :)
@Parent18 thank you
Omg.. I'm so deeply sorry.. .. we care ! Personally I have two losses that long ago that I still think of daily.. my father's ( which drives me to help others in grief ) and my soulmate...
but I cannot even allow myself to think of that being my only child... he came so close to death at 14 years old.. it was such a traumatic situation. Now, next month AGAIN I will sit and cry why they put him under to see if he is still in remission... I'm crying right now just thinking about it.... this time I hope to have some distraction while the procedure is in progress... just sitting outside waiting I just fall apart..