I was diagnosed with endo a month ago, but I think it just r

I was diagnosed with endo a month ago, but I think it just really hit my boyfriend and what all it means. I think my having the flu really bad is what did it. He had it just before me and it was like a mild cold for him, but for me it's so bad my doc has instructed I bed on bed rest for at least a week and I have to drop my current online class. He went out with our friends last night and I guess explained what was going on with me because they were asking about me, about the endometriosis and about how bad my flu is. He came home and cried because he feels so helpless, like all he can do is watch me suffer, even though he helps me with so many things. He's afraid that the endo will indirectly cause me a premature death, because of compromised immune system, surgeries, or just trying to have kids. He used to say if he won the lottery, he'd pay off both our student loans, get a house, maybe open a gaming place. Now he's saying that he'd just use the money to find a cure. He used to talk about going back to school to become a physicians assistant or a nurse anasthicist. Last night he told me he doesn't think he'll be going back to school, that he's going to stay where he is and this job will make him enough money to support me and any children we may be able to have. He assured me that if we can't conceive, we will use every Avenue to have the family we want with adoption as the last option. He told me he wants me to try to work when I get out of school, but that he doesn't think I'll be able to for long and made sure I understood that it's okay if I end up not being able to. He used to talk about how he wanted to "do more" with his life and with his work. Now he says he just wants to marry me, have a child with me anyway possible, and take care of me. Not that marrying me and having a family wasn't always part of the plan, it was, but now he says that's all he wants. It's like it hit him hard 12 hours ago what my having endometriosis really means. I'm not complaining. It just surprised me how it seemed to suddenly hit him and it's changing his plan and prioreties so much, especially since up until last night he kept telling me to hold out hope that it will get better, than my pain and other symptoms will lessen as if he thought it would get better on its own. I don't know if it's me being so sick right now or what, but his thinking on it has definitely changed suddenly. I'm glad he cares so much, and I'm glad he seems to understand now, but it is sad knowing how my endometriosis is affecting him and making him feel so sad and worried and helpless, knowing something about me is affecting him negatively even though I know it's not really my fault.

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I'll have to check it out, then.
He said swimming would be the easiest on my body, easier than walking.
Yeah. It's tough to know what kind of therapist to look for. I have a lot of issues. Depression, anxiety, panic, ptsd, chronic pain.

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Eh, all counselors learn how to treat depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. PTSD and chronic pain are more specialities. Younger counselors are also more apt to do some self-teaching to provide you with the best service.
Have you managed the swimming yet? How did it go?

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Yeah, I'm not sure which specialty would be better to look for.
No, we haven't gone swimming yet, unfortunately. I'm hoping we will be able to soon.

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