I am currently separated from my husband, he moved out 3 mon

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I am currently separated from my husband, he moved out 3 months ago. We've been together 10 years. It was my decision to end the marriage. I told him to leave. He begged me to reconsider. I didn't. I wanted out. Or so I thought. One week after he left I realized I couldn't live without him. I begged him to come back, he didn't even want to hear about it anymore. Now he already moved in with another woman. They're living together for 1 month already. And I still beg him to come back to me. We didn't get a divorce yet. So deep down I fool myself in believing that maybe we still have a chance. Ever since we separated I have fallen into depression and anxiety. I cry all the time, I hardly eat, I lost 15 lbs, I have days when I can't even get out of bed or take a shower. I see no future for myself, I see no life for myself without him. And I feel so guilty and stupid and angry at myself because it was my decision. I single handedly ruined my life. And I even consider suicide. I am desperate. I just don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself for what I did. I don't know if I can continue my life. I don't know what to do. This is a cry for help.

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Oct 11

Do not kill yourself. And you need to start taking care of yourself. If your husband does realize he has made a mistake you will want him to have something to come back to. Live your life, let him see that you are worth coming back for. Have you considered counseling? You need to be healthy and whole as a person no matter what happens with your marriage.

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Oct 11

Hi there. I understand how you feel a bit. It hurts to be replaced so quickly and it seems so easily. I also considered suicide when my ex husband left. I can tell you I am so glad I did not destroy my life for someone who thought so little of me he moved in with another woman while still married to me. It isn't easy to ever forgive someone else for hurting us so badly and it's not easy to forgive ourselves for the guilt. It takes time. And there is nothing saying his relationship with this other woman is particularly solid if he was with you only a week ago.

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Oct 12

@Jenn4473 did it take long for you until you recovered and were able to move on with your life, Jenn?

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