I would love to be able to go back in time to change MANY

I would love to be able to go back in time to change MANY things. I can't, so I just try to keep my brain busy, and know that I can't change the past, only the future. The good part is that I have so much bull **** going on that I can always think of something worse that has happened to me!! Moral of the story--life sucks then you (wish you could) die!! Yes, I am all about sarcasm. That is how I've been dealing w it (many negative things) all my life