Today was my birthday. I'm never more depressed and self loa

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Today was my birthday. I'm never more depressed and self loathing than I am on my birthday. No matter what I always end up alone. Plans fall apart, friends cancel, and I end up sitting in a dark room wanting to blow my brains out. It's the day I get to spend reflecting on another year of my life that sums to nothing. I just want it to be over. I'm tired of being lonely, and sad, and most of all I'm tired of being tired.

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Sep 12

Charles Dickens once wrote No one is useless in this world who lightens the burdens of another. When I focus on my own struggles, they seem only to become exacerbated. Have you tried taking your mind off of your difficulties by making an intentional effort to help others in some way. Sometimes doing for others may cause us to look upon our troubles with a different perspective. Dickens may have been onto something, when he said helping others can cause our own difficulties to lighten.
I once read, Don’t grow weary of doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we don’t give up. Maybe you looked everywhere for answers and have not found any, in my own state of confusion, and desperation- I felt useless and hopeless- until I looked up. When I realized how much God loved me, I found hope, in spite of how I felt about myself, things began to change. The actor Christopher Reeve, once said Once you choose hope, Anything is possible.
Choose Hope!

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Sep 12

Maybe you'll find comfort in knowing that you are one year older and one year closer to the grave so don't get ahead of yourself. Death awaits us all at some point, don't rush it.

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Sep 12

@blessedby4
I liked the Charles Dickens quote ^_^

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