I am not doing very well. No one seemed to notice. Whenever

I am not doing very well. No one seemed to notice. Whenever someone asks its not sincere, they say it as part of a phrase. When im told im not looking well people dont ask if they can help they ask what i am doing to fix it. When i answer they dont consider anything trying. They dont even see it as a lame attempt.
I dont understand what is srong with me. How come im so broken inside. How come im unfixable, unworkable, unhelpable. How come im so alone when people say they love being with me. How come no one has seen past me being fake...
How come i live everyday but i am dying at the same time. How come i work and do everything i can for family and still feel so worthless, feel like no one will do anything for me. How come i wont let myself break down.
Whats wrong with me

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Hawaii101's picture
[57530]
Sep 12

It takes 18 months until you are free from the grips of self harm. I would Distract by singing, humming, or repeating a song lyrics. I would draw, doodle, or color. I suggest excerising because it does help. I would ride my bike to work. I suggest holding an ice cube in your hand. Even Drawing on your skin with a marker is helpful. The Main goal is to self express yourself consistently. Whether, it is acting, painting, or shouting out lyrics. It is what I suggest because it has help.

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Cw1's picture
[2930]
Sep 12

“I can tell you that “Just cheer up” is almost universally looked at as the most unhelpful depression cure ever. It’s pretty much the equivalent of telling someone who just had their legs amputated to “just walk it off.” Some people don’t understand that for a lot of us, mental illness is a severe chemical imbalance rather just having “a case of the Mondays.” Those same well-meaning people will tell me that I’m keeping myself from recovering because I really “just need to cheer up and smile.” That’s when I consider chopping off their arms and then blaming them for not picking up their severed arms so they can take them to the hospital to get reattached.”
― Jenny Lawson, Furiously Happy: A Funny Book About Horrible Things

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Holding On's picture
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Sep 13

Very true and well said. For some of us there is just no meds at all that will fix it. It is chemical and emotional and then some.

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