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@Unnamed19s. oh my god. Your situation is extreme, you aren't "crazy", and you mentioned there are so many witnesses. Don't ever think you're crazy, you are having a legit reaction to a person who I think we can safely say, is a murderer. Cutting the brakes on someone's car?! That's a real reason to be afraid, combined with stalking you, placing trackers--- and if you had stayed he would have probably killed you eventually, and your son would have witnessed it. your story is shocking. I really am glad if you arent in that town anymore, and I feel like you need to sell your car that he at any point had access to, in a neighboring town (not your current place). I worked with people whose ex- partners were dangerous like yours, and you need to make sure you're off all social media apps and no friends in common with him. It isn't that you weren't "enough", he is genuinely a psychopath/sociopath. Normal people dont track their loved ones, send or hire people to stalk them, or cut the brakes on people's cars which is genuine proof that he intended to hurt whomever was driving and if theyd been driving a littlw too fast they could have literally died. I cant believe your child is exposed to thus, and I really think you should talk tk victim services and ask about a safehouse, or at least a counseling service specifically for as another supporting person has said---for stolkholm syndrome which is what you're experiencing ---love for an abuser. I think that when youve experienced love and pain so much, we can confuse the two. We can really begin to look past the cruel, and DANGEROUS situation we find ourselves in. And dangerous includes, but is not limjted to suicidal ideation as a result of someone's abuse, while thinking we caused their behavior, beinf willing to accept them back into our life despite them showing clear signs if being emotionally neglectful, abusive, psychologically, sexually, or physically which includes threats of harm and stalking. Girl Im genuinely worri3d for you and Im glad you arent in thw same town as this person who has isolated you to this extreme. Im glad you can acknowledge he is playing mind ganes with you. Normal people dont do this, no matter whether someone "deserves" it or not. You dont deserve this. You, have nothing to do with how he treats you. He would treat all partners like thus because he's insane.