I’m such a horrible girlfriend. I have depression & tend t

I’m such a horrible girlfriend. I have depression & tend to sleep a good chunk of the day. But I’ve gotten better with that. Turns out I also—along with everything else I have—have sleep apnea.

However, when I’m not sleeping, I’m typing or whatever—not spending time with my boyfriend/partner (whatever you want to call it) who is always playing video games & talking with his friend—who even know I know he’s not cheating on me, I still feel like that.

He complains & states that it’s because I’m always typing & won’t play video games with him that we no longer get along. Even though he knows that I have reasons for not playing. The smallest reason: I don’t care for the games he plays (just as he hates my stories & won’t read or even talk to me about them).

The main reasons I don’t play video games (& he knows this) I can’t remember or place which button does what & because of my RA; it has settled in my wrists & affects my fingers.

But I’ve tried to find something to do together—but he never wants to.

COVID sure hasn’t helped anything because I really can’t go anywhere because I have low immune system.

But whatever—I’ll stop & give up my writing because it’s the problem. I’ll give up what I like to do or listen to whatever he likes & listen to him talk to his friend (who has lied to him several times now).

Whatever...

I really don’t know what category to put this on

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SarT55's picture
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Jan 13

We are trying to figure things out...but today we got into another pi**ing match. Part of it on him & part of it on me...

To all who say I need to get help for everything I have, thanks, but it seems so impossible. I’ve called several times & they tell me they’ll call me back—but never do. I honestly don’t know what to do. I’m trying to get legal varied diagnosis, but I’m just getting the run around.

My previous primary doctor (now retired) said she highly believes I have depression (along with several other people) but was only able to do so much.

I also know I have anxiety/social anxiety, but I’m either just overly stressed or crazy.

I want to get tested for ADD, but I’ve been told there’s no point because I’m 29 & only children can get that diagnosed.

I do have a CPAP machine & for the most part it helps. Some days I just don’t have the energy or ambition to get up & out of bed.

I just don’t know what to do anymore...

Sorry for the rant, but thanks for reading if you read all the way to the end.

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Jan 14

@SarT55 I read to the end. Sar, what things make you happy? What do you enjoy?

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SarT55's picture
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16 hours ago

@DD Delgado I’m not even sure anymore...

I used to love writing, but I’m having a hard time with it.

I just got the new Midnight Sun (part of the Twilight series) so I’m trying to read ALL those again.

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