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I am extremely new to support groups in general but I honestly feel like this is my last resort. I have been battling with depression for as long as I can remember. Last Thanksgiving, that depression turned into DEEP depression. I was in a serious relationship for 2 years with someone that I fell in love with at first sight. Everything was going well that first year. It all changed when she started making her son's father a priority over me (I am a female as well). Every time I would voice my opinion about the situation, I somehow would get abused. One minute it's verbal, the next minute it's physical. Although this continued I just knew she was my soulmate. I figured that there were so many great qualities about her that I could overlook the abuse and hope it would eventually end. Instead, her narcissism and gaslighting took a toll on me. She had me believing that it was all my fault and it was normal. Keep in mind that every relationship I had been in previously was abusive. Well, 2 days prior to Thanksgiving...she left me. We were living together for those 2 years. A week went by and still no sight or word from her or the kids. Being that the house we lived in was in her name, it didn't feel right just staying there without her. I left numerous of texts and voicemails. I even contacted family and friends that she was close to. STILL NOTHING. But, she was using social media as if nothing was wrong. So, I had decided to pack all of my things and leave with nowhere to go. A few days after, I noticed that I had left a few things at the house. Noticing that her car still wasn't parked outside, I quickly took my keys out and unlock the door. To my surprise....the house was completely empty. Long story short, she hasn't reached out to me but once. Which was a couple of weeks ago to tell me happy birthday. And of course, she didn't respond after my reply. Since she has left me I have lost my job, I barely eat, I can barely sleep, and I'm thinking about her every minute of the day. It's to the point where I feel like I have become obsessed. You may say that I should be happy I got out of that abusive relationship but I feel like I would proudly take her back. I feel like there is no such thing as life without her. I feel like there is no purpose without her. I need help....

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[26390]
Feb 18

so sorry to hear that. yeah i 've been there (that kind of relationship). i cut the relationship and moved on . P lease please take care of yourself. and remember that there are many people who you can love and can love you in the world. i'm sure, among billions of people on earth. .... maybe contacting her via social media? if that feeling is that strong? Anyway, still get a job again, eat well, and try to sleep better, get a hobby, meet people, have a dream and goal. don't stop your life's engine and keep moving. life is short. you blink your eye and you find yourself old.

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[26390]
Feb 18

@strawblue find something else that can be meaningful, even if it's abstract

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[300]
Feb 25

I f you find yourself in crisis please call 911 or National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255. There is also a Crisis Text Line at 741741 just text HELP and a trained professional will be right back to you.
Is there anyone you can talk to like a sibling or close friend ? Or maybe your church pastor?. Do you seen a counselor? if not it would be a good idea. Also here are some information about depression that might help you as well. http://bit.ly/2yc8nk5 Prayers to you.

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