Trigger Warning The hell am I even doing here anymore? Ever

BellaLuna22725's picture
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Trigger Warning
The hell am I even doing here anymore? Everyone knows what I am going through because I trusted them and told them but it is like this thing that can never be brought up. We don’t talk about it and just ignore what I’m going through? Since 6th grade I started feeling sad for no reason. So I was like,”Ok. I’m going to be fine. It’s just because I’m at a new school.” And it got better and I even had a small group of friends, good grades, and a supporting family. But then I almost got rapped by one of my trusted friends and I reported him and told my friends...THEY LEFT?! WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE?! I needed them so bad...I was so naïve and innocent and since then I have been cutting and throwing myself down the stairs and jumping off balconies, hoping that I’ll die but I am also too scared to die. I do not wanna live but I am too scared to die...JUST STOP!! I’m so weak and hurt sometimes I can not breathe, I can not think! I JUST CAN NOT OKAY?! Oh god....

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MoonDanc3r's picture
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May 1

@BellaLuna22725 I've felt that way many times (& still do, often). A lot of times it feels like just breathing but not really existing...or existing, but not living. I know the feeling. Please reach out if you'd like. I'll never judge you bc you need to talk about something. <3

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MoonDanc3r's picture
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May 1

@BellaLuna, I supported you on here, also, so please feel free to send me a message any time, no matter what you're feeling. I promise not to judge or expect you to have to hide your feelings for someone else's convenience. People who expect that are the ones with the problem, not you. As Dr. Seuss once said, "Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." Be you--that's the most important thing you can do--and no one else can do it better. <3

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SimonaAlex's picture
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May 4

You have a supporting family. You didn't deserve to get raped.

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