I need someone to listen and have no one. I need someone to

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I need someone to listen and have no one. I need someone to talk to, and have no one. I tried a therapist but he sort of just didnt get it, despite me trying to explain it, he didn't get it. He told me playing the drums is the best therapy. I dont need that, I need someone to listen, to feel heard. I swear to God sometimes I just want to give up on life completely. I am so tired, of being the person who listens. The one who offers an ear, and comforting words. All I get, is a mother who has NPD and my friends and sister are all workaholics so interavtions with them are all superficial. I literally have nobody except me. I tried so hard. And I just have to DEFEND my feelings. I have to always defend myself, why i dont feel heard, mayne theyrr doing their best, can someone PLEASE just be on my side for once. Can I please just die or get run over by a var or something. Im just ready for this life experience to be over.

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Foundlove's picture
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Feb 23

@Blueberries1234 yes your right about the exercise... when I’m too stressed out I can’t really do it. I guess that’s part of reason I just quit the gym for last year. I feel little better though n encourage to start going again. I’m so sorry your therapist wasn’t good match and traumatized you. Seems like he needed therapy from what your describing! I feel like don’t give up though, and maybe try to find different therapist. I saw like 3 before one actually helped. It’s hard to find good genuine people who care including therapists. Yes, I do want to eat more healthy n starting off with limiting alcohol and carbs. I feel like being able to avoid narcissist people altogether is near impossible. For me, when I notice someone like that now I just try to stay away and definitely will not be willing to bring someone back into my life that’s like that. I wish you well on your journey, and hope you find some relief n quality help for your trauma!

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Foundlove's picture
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Feb 23

@Rdan thanks for the tips!

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Blueberries1234's picture
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Feb 23

@Foundlove sending you good vibes, seems like you already know what you have to do and are doing great. Compassion for ourselves gets us there the rest of the way maybe. Yea I just took the first therqpist the school offered, he was nice but maybe Ill ask for another. They dont really explain the process. Thanks again. :)

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