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November 19th, 2020

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I'm going to fail... Again... I know it for sure now... Any

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I'm going to fail... Again... I know it for sure now... Any doubts I had, any small bit of hope I had of trying is gone now... I'm just going to fail... This will be my 3rd attempt to get into PG after MBBS... I shouldn't have come into MBBS... I feel that I took a wrong decision then... I'm not ready to face the stress of dealing with people who are not ready to listen... I cannot bear this pressure... I don't know what to do... I just know I'm going to fail everywhere in my life... I shouldn't have taken that MBBS seat... I was selfish... I keep doing this always... I get selfish and don't give up... And then do poorly... And then keep feeling guilty over it for life... I hate myself... I don't have any reason to live... I don't have motivation to work... I don't have interest to study... I don't have the strength to go on anymore... I just can't.... Please God.... Please.... Please.... Please get me out of this misery.... I cannot bear this anymore.... Please

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Nov 18

We could use more psych doctors here in US. Many are booked full at this trying tme.

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Nov 21

@kvolm2016 yeah... He's trying in his own way... And it's way off what I require... I tried to talk and tell him about my anxiety but he suddenly became angry bcs I'm being stupid and overthinking things... I guess he realised later on bcs we talked twice after that and things went well... But that's probably because I didn't utter a single word contradicting him... I will have to try that and see his response, only then I'll know for sure... But I'm neither that brave nor that stupid... I'm absolutely not ready to get him angry by contradicting him and make him upset and then get upset myself when he raises his voice.... For now, I'm just going to humor him and sit and listen... And try my best not to commit to any task or things he asks me to do... Bcs if I do he'll hang it over my head... It doesn't matter whether I agreed by mistake or by choice...

Sorry I'm rambling again... Thank you for being supportive

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Nov 21

@bebobaBetty I'm sorry that there are less doctors than required... I hope u r doing well... I'd love to be a psychiatrist but I'm not suited for that stream... Psychiatrists need a lot of positivity inside them... And I'm quite opposite... I'd probably be very successful in that field but that would be at the cost of my mental health and eventually my physical health... Also, It's very difficult for me to be impartial and it's absolutely necessary to be impartial in that field...

That being said.... Thank you for the advise Betty... I did consider coming to US but I can't stay too far from my parents, so I dropped it...

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