It's been over a year and I still miss my ex gf and think ab
It's been over a year and I still miss my ex gf and think about her every day. I still love her. I can't let go. I kept from contacting her or looking at her fb page. Till tonight. I looked at her page. And what did I see? A picture of us in her featured photos. WTF!!! She was always very private online. I don't know what I expected maybe to see that she's in a relationship? It would've hurt but I want her to be happy so maybe that would've been some closure for me. Now I don't know what to think. I put that woman through hell. She wanted a family that I can't give her. I know this doesn't mean she's not happy or seeing someone but that would be kind of akward right? I've fought the urge to message her for a long time. It's taken everything I have at times. I wanted to say "Just tell me you're happy and you moved on. It'll do me a world of good." But I don't want to disturb her if that's the case and I don't want to look foolish. Between how I mistreated her, having H now, me still having unresolved issues and not being any closer to giving her her dreams why would I do any of that? But WTF!? I never should have looked!