So... my mother made it pretty clear she regrets having kids
So... my mother made it pretty clear she regrets having kids and I'm clearly the worst daughter ever...
I just want to end my life right now.
Mental illness almost always comes out where it's 'safe'. That means we usually hurt the people closest to us. It's not an excuse. It sucks that that's the way it happens. It isn't fair to you to have to hear those things. If she was healthy, even if she felt it she likely wouldn't put it on you. She isn't healthy though. You can't worry about what she is doing for herself but you can help yourself. I hope you find ways that let you see beyond her words to the truth - you are important, you were planned in a bigger picture than your Mother's, you have purpose, there are better things ahead for you when you can move on from this abusive situation. Sorry for your pain.
@CannotSeeTheWayOut, thank you for your support. <3 :-)
Just thinking about you. Hoping you are ok <3