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@Alondris I can relate to afunk's, CKBlossom's, and your experience because I have chronic pain from an injury that I healed from. As a result I couldn't continue with my former job and accumulated debt. I'm trying to hope for things to get better. I haven't forgotten the dreams that I still want to accomplish. Watching people become successful in the same fields of careers that I'm doing now inspires me. There are times when it feels as if I'm wasting my time because I haven't reaped the rewards yet. I question when my careers will take off and change my life for the better. I also have good times when I'm focused on my work and feel fulfilled that I created content. I also look back on all of the work that I've done to realize that I'm creating a lot that matters. A struggling artist, writer, actor, singer, entrepreneur, or other profession that's high in demand requires skill, patience, and perseverance. I haven't given up. Sometimes I'm frustrated because I haven't earned any money in my new jobs so my debt continues increasing. I can understand the chronic pain that won't ease and life not getting better. I wish that the solution would arrive soon.

@afunk, I really feel for your plight. And believe me, I can relate. Sorry it took this long to see your response here, and react.

I still believe there is a place for you making a difference in the world, because every human life can and does, even if we don't always see it.

Humans really are interconnected and often don't see the impact their presence has on the lives of those they meet, be it online or elsewhere.

Look at Joni Eereckson Tada for example. She was bedridden after becoming paralyzed in her teens. She wanted to give up and die. She even begged someone to kill her. Eventually she learned to paint with her mouth. She is a singer and she started a ministry to assist others with special needs. Later she got cancer. But she wrote a book about it, someone gave me as a gift.

Anyhow that is just one example of a person who wanted to give up, but pretty much had no choice but to continue. And it was because of a friend that cared enough to spend time with her that she was inspired to go on and not give up on herself.

I hope you will hang in there and know your life is precious to God and others, even if it doesn't feel like it at the moment.