This is my first post so I'm just gonna give a little info o
This is my first post so I'm just gonna give a little info on why I'm here. I have been struggling with bulimia since I was 12. It's now been 4 years. I decided to search for support in my recovery after going about 5 months without purging, then recently relapsing worse than before. I'm young and very athletic and I know if I keep this up I'm putting my health at risk. Since struggling with my eating disorder I have lost a lot of weight and have been told I look too skinny, but I can't see that. It's not that I think I need to lose weight, I just always thought being skinny was the only way I could be happy and now that I apparently am, I'm more depressed than ever. I feel like I have no one to talk to when it comes to this because I'm too scared to let anyone know. I hope that by sharing with people who know what im going through, I can find the support I need to recover.
Hey first time post for me. I completely get that. I've had this binge purge for nearly 8 years now and it's on and off. If I'm not purging, I'm binging and that still isn't right. I've told people and very open about it but my brothers want me to open up more and talk about how I'm going but how do you talk about the thought of wanting to eat so much you want to be sick. Or the fact you are disappointed because you had that peice of cake. It's stupid and I hate it.
Is there a separate forum for just college/high school students with eating disorders? I feel like it could be helpful...anyone know how to start a separate group chat. I have similar experience.
I think I commented on your second post. I would like to share my story. I spent years and years believing that if only I weighed X or if I fit into size X I would be happy and I would be lovable. Only I reached weight X and size X and nothing really changed, so I had to lose more weight. I still struggle with bingeing/purging every once in a while. But I actually like who I am and how I look for the first time in my life. I can't really tell you what exactly helped me, I think it was a lot of things. But I think the core of it is learning to unconditionally love ourselves.