Each binge is the last one for years now..I've been bulimic
Each binge is the last one for years now..I've been bulimic for 8 years now.. finally time to admit it and start dealing with it. I've been borderline obsessed with food since I was a young child. I'm a very naturally happy go lucky person, but when it comes to food I just struggle to control myself. I have no excuse. I have an awesome family with no traumatic episodes.. I just let food control me and purge to avoid gaining weight. Tonight I decided to eat a huge dinner and purge it before my husband got home- the urge is so strong. It's time for me to take control back.. I've let this control me for too long. Glad to read others stories.
It's not about control or willpower. My ED grew around my fear of being out of control. For me, Acceptance and admitting that I am powerless is key.
I think it's so brave that you joined this site and opened up about your struggles! Because it was tough for me to admit and I felt ashamed...