I'm not well right now. I feel my partner has no understand
I'm not well right now. I feel my partner has no understanding of how my brain works.
I blew up at him tonight, again and now I feel ashamed. I'm worried that this is how it will always be. I want to isolate. I want to know that someone else understands how this feels.
I completely understand. What you've described is one of my biggest struggles. I always feel such shame after blowing up. And my partner doesnt understand my brain but he does try, thankfully and we do couples therapy. You are so not alone. I am finding that this forum is becoming my safe haven. Anytime i feel too intense, ive posted here and people understand. We are here for you.
It's very difficult for us to understand ourselves so you can imagine how hard it is for a non bpd... learn to challenge yourself and talk to each other and listen to your partner and together you can come with solutions to prevent or lessen your triggers :)