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@Cramos83 I think if you have real reasons NOT TO TRUST HIM think about your future probability in a trusting relationship with him. My daughter's father cheated constantly. I stayed with him because I refused to see it and I was a chicken to leave. Until I got tired of it. He is a Narc. It was manipulation on his part. Anyway, TRUST is a choice, not a feeling.

@Cramos83 keep in mind, your partner has his own issues too. You have to develop a communication style you both benefit from. Truthfully, I would feel better crying, ranting, seeking constant reassurance- but that makes life together unmanageable. I accept my responsibility to control ME. I don't let BDP sabotage my life. I used to. Like I said- practice. In the beginning you have to first recognize emotions and actions. That's hard because we instinctively intensify everything.

@Cramos83 Fear. A bear of an enemy but can be defeated. Love defeats fear. Love more than you fear. Love yourself to step outside your fear to see your other choices. Maybe you can be confident in one area. I have a few "must do chores" so even if I feel ugly, old, frumpy- I can say My kitchen is sparking clean. Yes, I'm awesome. Then I feel like i can point at my success. See, it's not unattainable even though it feels NUTS! because I'm sure most non bdps don't process emotions like we do. I'm digressing...let me know how else I can help