Sorry, I know I'm posting a lot on here lately. I'm super ma
Sorry, I know I'm posting a lot on here lately. I'm super manic and I need to get it out of my system. Anyway, I'm getting really sick of feeling obligated to constantly apologize for my mental state. My coworkers are getting really frustrated with me because of my mania so I feel like I have to apologize to them on a daily basis for not being at my best but the other half of me says that they just need to deal with it because it's how God created me and we all have issues. I don't know. Does anyone else have that issue? This is only adding to my stress over dose changes and an additional medication. I work in an ice cream shop and we're starting to get busy. I'm working 6+ days a week and literally running around like a chicken with its head cut off at full speed unable to focus on a given task. Mania sucksssssss.
Yesss mania sucks, but look at it another way- would you rather be suicidal?
@PhyllisGirnius this is the time of year when I usually start seeing the visions of my own suicide and those thoughts are starting to creep up again on top of the mania.
@rock_a_feather such a beautiful time of the year. I love Spring. not the time of the year to think of dying, when everything is coming alive after a dreary winter. I advise you to get some blooming annuals and plant. that usually works for me. my irisis are about to bloom and I cannot wait for my caregiver to pick me a bouquet for my room. yes, I spend 99% of my time there these days and I get down sometimes, but just think, when you are down there is nowhere to go but up! HUGS, MY FRIEND