I am more than aware that i am bipolar, but everyone around
I am more than aware that i am bipolar, but everyone around me just thinks its bs. either they think its bs or they just think meds are gonna completely change everything about me. or my favorite thinking that ever one has is that i just have to be stronger than it. yes i make jokes about loving food and sleep, but deep down those are literally the only things that make me happy. i enjoy being alone because it gives people less opportunity to hurt me and pull me down. i have this disease and no one understands what its like to be 19 and literally have a disease ruin every good relationship you have.
@rdpca1 thank you. i am so glad i found this place it is the only place i feel safe to talk about anything.
@kortneyellen me too the only place I feel safe to talk about anything, except slowly my wife, because afraid of losing her, and trust takes time. A lot of time and hopefully not too much.
@kortneyellen I tried 4 or 5 different meds for primarily rapid severe depressions and the first one that worked was Wellbutrin and is not expensive at least with insurance I hope you have. Some drug companies i ads for in TV say cover some for people without insurance.