It's been about four days since I purged which is good. But

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It's been about four days since I purged which is good. But not in essence of I hate that fact I'm putting food in my body but I am realizing I tend to turn towards "binges" when I am having a panic attack, which seems to occur daily now. Ultimately, Which leaves me feeling terrible afterwards. And the cycle continues and I hate it. I just really hate myself right now. Not sure where to turn because I try to handle the panic attacks and it sets off my anorexia/purging triggers. I try to handle those triggers and I end up retriggering my depression/anxiety/panic attacks. What an annoying loop of never ending torture...

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Oct 11

@certifiedangus thank you so much. I don't know why but I really needed some form of kindness today and that helped tremendously. I am not currently under a doctors care purely because I have a hard time opening up to anyone, especially strangers. Thus no one knows anything that's currently going on with me. They just assume I'm dieting and losing all the weight healthily. Etc. etc. I know it's a dumb excuse.. sigh. Thank you!!

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Oct 11

@renarooroo I have similar issues with depression and binging. I’ve had a good week so far and have made a deal with myself if I can go without binging through the end of the month. I’ve come to realize the we need to be kinder to ourselves. I’ve found this support group helpful sometimes it’s nice to know you’re not alone and to hear so many kind words from strangers. Reaching out for help and talking about it has put me in a better path. I’m here if you need a stranger to lend an ear.

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Oct 12

@Jr2249 that's awesome! I'm glad you are having a good week. This group has helped me more than I thought so far. It definitely helps to know there are other people going through similar things. Thank you for the offer I will definitely keep it in mind!! I hope the month goes smoothly for you! :)

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