New to this site... just need to vent. Quick background on m

New to this site... just need to vent. Quick background on myself I'm an adult child of an alcoholic & within this past year learned that my husband is also an alcoholic. Been going to al-anon for a long time now so that's something but god **** my PTSD from growing up with my alcoholic abusive father is absolutely horrible.. the nightmares prevent me from sleeping so I don't sleep and only do once my body shuts down and forces it. My husband WAS in the military up until recently so I was receiving good care advice far as a psychiatrist & psychologist but after 3 rounds of in patient alcohol rehab they kicked him out so we're screwed on insurance.. I'm working with my job to see if they will allow me to enroll in benefits cuz I know it's after the certain enrollment period but I need insurance.. now residing in IL I can apply for medical cannabis.. the absolute only thing that helps with my flashbacks and nightmares and such, I have full documentation from my previous medical team about my condition and cannot wait to receive the medicene I greatly need. I was put on every SSRI and Everthing else **** made me suicidal as hell and insane. Ugh sorry for the rant just need to put this out there, doubt anyone will see this and care

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Sep 13

Welcome to SG, Doglover! In reading your "vent," I thought about something I am personally working on. So many of my natural responses in everyday life, do not bring me happiness. My Psych shared about Povlov's Dog. The dog would salivate when the bell rang. She told me that I need to get rid of the fu*king bell. I know with PTSD you are dealing with triggers. I would assume you know what they are.

Has your husband had any success in the past with AA? Three impatient programs in a row is concerning. My Brother did two in a row and was never able to quit. Some people just don't get it. I'm pleased to read that you have embraced Al-Anon. Great organization!

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Sep 14

Yes al-anon has definitely helped tremendously. & my husband goes to AA meetings stays sober then falls off the deep end. Vicious cycle, just trying my best to focus on myself and get my self to a happier place

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