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@Fohb460 Thank you so much for your advise. Yes I've been isolating myself. I go to work, come back to my room and lights off. I'm basically just fed up of this life. I've hinted at my wife about this. Also I'm thinking of plan B(change in profession) too.

@Sailorboy You're welcome. Keep your thinking cap on about a different profession and write down ideas to make it more real, not just in your head.

@Sailorboy, Your on my support list also. So message anytime you want. The gym sounds good. I've heard those ships have everything. A city on the sea. Stick with the gym if you can. It's good for you physically but also emotionally. Working out helps to release those much needed Endorphins into your blood stream. The feel good hormones. I had a friend that was a submariner. That closed in space would have drove me nuts. Thank God for the internet now days. At least you can contact family and friends when you wish. And if you can't talk to them about how you feel. There's us.... we are here to help also.