overit12

I am a recovering alcoholic/drug addict, I have had 15 yrs clean at one time. I relapsed after a 20 yr marriage ended in divorce. ( found out he had internet girlfriend). I met a man ,within 6 weeks I was living with him, I have struggled with sobriety for the past 8 years. I always knew something was up with this dudes cell phone. Thought it might be gambling, after many years of almost catching , and him bouncing off different net works ,hidden themes ,profiles and so much more. I finally down loaded his phone into my lap top. I was shocked to find out he has been into all kinds of porn, chat rooms ,pretty sure web cams .H e denies it and says I am crazy. I fled two states away because I am so devastated . I am staying with daughter and trying to pick up the pieces. Its only been 3 weeks so I am just wrapping my mind around this and realizing that I need help, I can't believe that I accepted so little from the most important relationship I had. I am back going to 12 step meetings and I am clean. I hope to get support, because not a lot of people understand this bizzare situation. the obsessing on my part, the self doubt and overall low self esteem. I hope to never be here again.

Latest Posts by overit12

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  Hard time Withdrawing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Codependency
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  Latest Post by ShariBaby on Mon, 04/23/2012 - 14:28. Comments - 2
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  HE's BACK
  Sex Addiction
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  Latest Post by charli0217 on Mon, 04/23/2012 - 04:11. Comments - 1
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  Floating Down the River Denial
  Codependency
  I would appreciate all the help I can get. A lot of you know my story about leaving my boyfriend of 8 yrs for sexual addiction. I have been going to m...
  Latest Post by truebeauty101 on Tue, 04/10/2012 - 11:32. Comments - 5
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  30 days clean
  Meth
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  Latest Post by lovergirl999 on Sun, 03/18/2012 - 19:47. Comments - 1
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  FEELING WEEK
  Codependency
  I am feeling so week right now!!!!!!!!! I left my man a month ago for cyber cheating/ who knows what else. I have gone back to my 12 step meetings and...
  Latest Post by April on Mon, 03/05/2012 - 14:59. Comments - 3
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  Their is HOPE
  Sex Addiction
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  Latest Post by CK on Wed, 02/29/2012 - 09:32. Comments - 1
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  HELP !!!!!!!!!! I AM MISSING MY ADDICTION
  Sex Addiction
  I can't believe that I am actually missing my boyfriend that has been cheating on me with intense use of porn and chat rooms. I must be crazy.I have b...
  Latest Post by overit12 on Sun, 02/19/2012 - 14:34. Comments - 3
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  Totally Freaking Out!!!!!
  Sex Addiction
  i just found out that my boyfriend of eight years has a long time and very active internet sex life.I started realizing early on that he was obsessed...
  Latest Post by overit12 on Mon, 02/13/2012 - 18:19. Comments - 6
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  A Little hope
  Meth
  I went back to 12 step meetings this week (every night) I feel a little bit of hope for the future. I realize all my problems are of my making and it ...
  Latest Post by Suzee on Sat, 02/11/2012 - 12:02. Comments - 1
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  FIRST DAY BACK
  Meth
  I have been struggling with my addiction my entire life. I have been clean for 15 years, then I relapsed. for the past 9 years I have done nothing bu...
  Latest Post by marcie on Thu, 02/09/2012 - 20:42. Comments - 1

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