Fresh out of three wards from two hospitals in what turned out to be a very near end to my existence suicide attempt. Intubated in icu nearly 2 days. Woke up suddenly then pulled every tube and cable off me, got up, and tried to walk out!

Need support, but can still offer it. Up down, all around. Been there done that. Topamax, argh! Kindness is not a weakness. Picture is 2 years ago this coming June Gulf in background offshore Anclote Preserve State Park 4 miles from mouth of Anclote River.

At times I feel like no matter where I am that I am the most worst off person around me. Up to age 25 I had spent half my life in the hospitals, and other institutions. 17 different schools, once 5 in one year. 22 different institutions total that I can remember. Lennox Gastaut went mis diagnosed for years. Drugs they experimented on me with at one time led me to be in a coma. They put it in my pudding at AGMC. I cherish my good days. I try to enjoy them. Not always pain, or mental anguish free, but when there is a good day for me, I take it! Learned to walk again after being rocked by two major MI's in a short period. Look for reasons to live everyday. Neurologist, Cardiologist, MD, Chiropractor, and a pain management doctor. Survived three MI's, have stents, heart meds, etc.

I cannot say anymore now about me right now. I get depressed. I like to help others, and when I am really having a bad day I appreciate help as well.