rocksasamickguitar

Fresh out of three wards from two hospitals in what turned out to be a very near end to my existence suicide attempt. Intubated in icu nearly 2 days. Woke up suddenly then pulled every tube and cable off me, got up, and tried to walk out! Need support, but can still offer it. Up down, all around. Been there done that. Topamax, argh! Kindness is not a weakness. Picture is 2 years ago this coming June Gulf in background offshore Anclote Preserve State Park 4 miles from mouth of Anclote River. At times I feel like no matter where I am that I am the most worst off person around me. Up to age 25 I had spent half my life in the hospitals, and other institutions. 17 different schools, once 5 in one year. 22 different institutions total that I can remember. Lennox Gastaut went mis diagnosed for years. Drugs they experimented on me with at one time led me to be in a coma. They put it in my pudding at AGMC. I cherish my good days. I try to enjoy them. Not always pain, or mental anguish free, but when there is a good day for me, I take it! Learned to walk again after being rocked by two major MI's in a short period. Look for reasons to live everyday. Neurologist, Cardiologist, MD, Chiropractor, and a pain management doctor. Survived three MI's, have stents, heart meds, etc. I cannot say anymore now about me right now. I get depressed. I like to help others, and when I am really having a bad day I appreciate help as well.

Latest Posts by rocksasamickguitar

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  ended it all 2 days icu 14 days hopsitals still here faced w same problems trying 2 cope
  Chronic Pain
  I just got out of the hospitals... Fresh out of three wards from two hospitals in what turned out to be a very near end to my existence suicide attem...
  Latest Post by rocksasamickguitar on Tue, 04/10/2012 - 11:33. Comments - 12
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  So depressed it's hard to type, physical pain & emotional bad combo after surgery
  Heart Attack
  Just two days after being in the hospital for six days in it having two surgeries one of which was removal of my gallbladder I lay awake groaning in i...
  Latest Post by Suzee on Tue, 02/14/2012 - 15:29. Comments - 11
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  gallbladder surgery scheduled for Sunday and I'm a mess!
  Hypothyroidism
  After enduring months of painful chest cramps I went to the er and now 16hours later I am scheduled for gallbladder surgery! My nerves are shot! I've...
  Latest Post by rocksasamickguitar on Sun, 01/29/2012 - 14:33. Comments - 2
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  Please tell me I am not the only wierdo still zooming 90 mph!!
  Panic Attack
  5 key factors have played a role in me getting off of my sleep pattern...#1 my new doctor failed several times to call in certain meds right away when...
  Latest Post by rocksasamickguitar on Thu, 01/26/2012 - 17:13. Comments - 13
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  You do not use any muscle to forgive. It does not cost any money to love.
  Hypothyroidism
  After watching a very special video tonight of a man who grew up similarly to myself and he also overcame a great deal to show the World his beautiful...
  Latest Post by rocksasamickguitar on Thu, 01/26/2012 - 15:03. Comments - 2
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  i had a heart attack 3am Tuesday 3 shots of nitro in ambulance, flat lined twice in er, 2 more shots of nitro
  Hypothyroidism
  i just got out of the hospital, heart center at bayonet point. i had a heart attack 3am Tuesday three shots of nitro in ambulance, flat lined twice ...
  Latest Post by donnak on Wed, 07/06/2011 - 13:43. Comments - 5
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  major panick attack lawyer at 10A left notes on mri gave to nurse
  Hypothyroidism
  Oh my goodness, as if suing my landlord was not enough stress. I was supposed to meet with an attorney from bay area legal at 10A. I was just gettin...
  Latest Post by Eventually Sunshine... on Wed, 06/08/2011 - 21:47. Comments - 93
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  thank ful I can still walk with my conditions
  Hypothyroidism
  just got back from my walk. painful, but mentaly needed. avg spd 2.7, mx spd 3.9, avg heart rate 125 bpm, max 153, pace only 22 minute miles 2.77 tota...
  Latest Post by rocksasamickguitar on Mon, 05/23/2011 - 02:27. Comments - 5
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  two new roommates seen a seizure first time today
  Hypothyroidism
  I I have had it rough lately, and have not been on a good sleep cycle for like two weeks. I was up since before that time the day before, and I neede...
  Latest Post by foxy on Sun, 05/22/2011 - 17:54. Comments - 5
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  Up late popping and cracking, ears ringing, worried about court in the morning
  Back Pain
  Up late popping and cracking, ears ringing, worried about court in the morning suing my landlord. Ongoing battle, harder on me than him. Lots of und...
  Latest Post by foxy on Sun, 05/15/2011 - 15:32. Comments - 15
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  out of shear fear from waking up with a headache I am trying to eat something
  Hypothyroidism
  in 45 minutes it will be 24 hours since i have eaten anything. i have been so depressed, and overwhelmed lately my sleep, and eating have been way of...
  Latest Post by Jassy on Sat, 05/14/2011 - 16:33. Comments - 3

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