MissHeather

I have an exciting history filled with a sample-platter of issues. An alcoholic father here, a controlled upbringing over there, throw in a little abuse, self injury, and sexual assault, top it off with controlling relationships and some good ol' fashioned drug and alcohol abuse. That's me. I believe the lack of love from my father in my childhood started a downward spiral for me where I never felt I would ever be good enough to be loved. I mean, if my own father didn't love me, I must be a bad person, right? So I did whatever I needed to do to fit in, be accepted, feel that sense of love. My first onset of anorexia was when I was 13, but it went away and came back in full force at 25. I thought if I just got thin enough, it would be enough for me to be happy. But happiness never came, and I realized I was killing myself. Two years later here I am, alive and going strong in recovery. It's hard work, but I'm showing up for it. Please read my story! http://www.supportgroups.com/journal/anorexia/the-3-as-anxiety-anorexia-and-abuse-my-story

Latest Posts by MissHeather

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  10 years of hair pulling, it's time to get help
  Trichotillomania
  When I was a freshman in college I was fixing my hair one day and noticed a bald patch on the back of my head. I grabbed a mirror and was shocked by ...
  Latest Post by Epiphany Munoz on Sun, 11/06/2011 - 20:43. Comments - 15
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  making progress with lexapro
  Trichotillomania
  I have been on Lexapro and natural estrogen for almost two months. I can feel myself returning to my normal self, and I have had made significant pro...
  Latest Post by mas617 on Wed, 04/06/2011 - 12:57. Comments - 6
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  High Anxiety/Panic Attacks and Low Estrogen
  Panic Attack
  Anxiety causes just about every symptom in the book and I was experiencing all of these: nausea, weight loss, difficulty concentrating, rapid heart b...
  Latest Post by puppydoglvr on Sat, 03/05/2011 - 22:56. Comments - 1
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  devastating news, and a surprising ED outcome
  Eating Disorder
  Last week I received the news that my dog has a terminal heart condition. Although we can give him medicine to make him more comfortable, we cannot e...
  Latest Post by hopeful on Tue, 09/07/2010 - 04:51. Comments - 5
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  interesting findings from a book about adult children of alcoholics
  Anorexia
  I'm reading a book from 1985 called "Recovery: A Guide for Adult Children of Alcoholics." Sure, it's old, but I have never read anything that was so...
  Latest Post by hopeful on Mon, 08/23/2010 - 04:59. Comments - 2
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  "what's past is prologue"
  Eating Disorder
  I came upon this today while reading. This is from The Tempest. "We all were sea-swallow'd, though some cast again (And by that destiny) to perfo...
  Latest Post by Andrea on Fri, 07/30/2010 - 06:21. Comments - 2
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  lengthy post-- being raped and issues with trust
  Rape
  When I was 24 (4 years ago) I went out with an acquaintance-- we went to Chuck E. Cheese and played all the games like we were kids. He gave me his t...
  Latest Post by MissHeather on Sat, 07/24/2010 - 11:24. Comments - 16
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  shopping experience and an epiphany
  Eating Disorder
  Today I took the bus downtown to go shopping at a trendy store. I had a great coupon and I was super duper excited. I looked around a picked out my ...
  Latest Post by Andrea on Tue, 07/06/2010 - 02:32. Comments - 6
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  celebrating one year of "normal" weight range
  Anorexia
  A year ago I stepped on the scale and saw the number that took me from "underweight" to "normal" according to my height and body shape/frame size. Si...
  Latest Post by Ella on Tue, 06/29/2010 - 12:12. Comments - 5
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  weekend trip; anxiety/ED thoughts
  Eating Disorder
  I have known about this upcoming weekend for months. My sister is graduating from college, and my whole family has been invited to the ceremony and t...
  Latest Post by janurse on Wed, 06/16/2010 - 19:18. Comments - 6
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  her perception vs. mine
  Eating Disorder
  Begin rant. In the past few weeks I have gained a few pounds... my pants fit a little bit tighter, I can feel a little bit extra around my hips. A...
  Latest Post by hopeful on Wed, 06/09/2010 - 11:30. Comments - 9
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  The 3 A's; Anxiety, Anorexia, and Abuse-- my story
  Anorexia
  I don't know much about myself because I'm just starting to get to know me. For my whole life I lived in response to what was going on around me. I ...
  Latest Post by stonemala on Mon, 06/07/2010 - 07:45. Comments - 3
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  Some happier thoughts... signs of recovery
  Eating Disorders
  I thought I'd share a few really positive experiences I'm having now that my recovery is pretty solid-- and maybe you all can share some positive chan...
  Latest Post by eobrien on Mon, 05/24/2010 - 10:51. Comments - 5
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  Neverending Hunger-- for the ladies please
  Eating Disorders
  This is for the women and contains talk about feminine issues. If you are male and don't like hearing about menstrual issues (or if you're female and...
  Latest Post by eobrien on Tue, 05/18/2010 - 12:36. Comments - 9
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  relapsing without starving?
  Anorexia
  For the past six or eight weeks I have been feeling really strange. I'm not losing weight, I'm still eating all my meals and all my snacks, but I fee...
  Latest Post by janurse on Tue, 05/04/2010 - 06:22. Comments - 11
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