babygirlboots

"I'm the girl who is lost in space, the girl who is disappearing always, forever fading away and receding farther and farther into the background. Just like the Cheshire cat, someday I will suddenly leave, but the artificial warmth of my smile, that phony, clownish curve, the kind you see on miserably sad people and villains in Disney movies, will remain behind as an ironic remnant. I am the girl you see in the photograph from some party someplace or some picnic in the park, the one who is in fact soon to be gone. When you look at the picture again, I want to assure you, I will no longer be there. I will be erased from history, like a traitor in the Soviet Union. Because with every day that goes by, I feel myself becoming more and more invisible..." - Elizabeth Wurtzel

Latest Posts by babygirlboots

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  Update
  Stress
  It's been months since I've posted on here. Things have turned around a bit. Although it's still difficult because my dad and grandmother are gone, I'...
  Latest Post by bluidkiti on Tue, 01/11/2011 - 07:21. Comments - 3
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  Me time
  Alcohol
  Well, I haven't cried yet today, so that's an improvement. My boyfriend and I text each other but he's been rather silent/unresponsive a lot of the ti...
  Latest Post by tools on Sun, 01/09/2011 - 16:23. Comments - 5
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  Everything I touch, I ruin
  Alcohol
  I've suffered from depression pretty much all of my life. Things certainly have not gotten better lately. In the last couple of years, my father was d...
  Latest Post by DaveC on Wed, 07/28/2010 - 17:36. Comments - 22
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  Making changes
  Stress
  Well, some time has passed and things are going all right. I did drink over my birthday weekend (my birthday was the 12th), but only low-alc drinks an...
  Latest Post by April on Thu, 07/15/2010 - 18:13. Comments - 1
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  Unfortunate, but seemingly true
  Alcohol
  After some conversation and sobbing relentlessly this afternoon, I've come to some conclusions. -It's highly doubtful that my boyfriend will ever fo...
  Latest Post by bluidkiti on Thu, 07/08/2010 - 04:35. Comments - 9
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  Bingeing and sadness
  Depression
  I've suffered from depression pretty much all of my life. Things certainly have not gotten better lately. In the last couple of years, my father was d...
  Latest Post by DAVID SCOTT on Sun, 07/04/2010 - 11:51. Comments - 4
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  Control
  Alcohol
  I had my TV on Discovery Health (I'd been watching movies On Demand on Comcast and it went back to the channel it was last on) and noticed there was a...
  Latest Post by bluidkiti on Sun, 07/04/2010 - 02:04. Comments - 3
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  Thank God
  Depression
  Well, he says he hasn't stopped loving me. Which is more than I could ask for at this point. Even if he thinks (correctly) that everything is my fault...
  Latest Post by babygirlboots on Fri, 07/02/2010 - 09:59. Comments - 1
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  Yet another day
  Alcohol
  I don't feel the need to drink at all. The idea makes me sick. I just wish I could see my boyfriend to comfort him in some way -- even if I wouldn't b...
  Latest Post by April on Thu, 07/01/2010 - 18:06. Comments - 4
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  I'm no poet
  Depression
  It's like I'm losing my sight In the dark about what's to come I'm in a constant state of fright I wish I could just feel numb Even with my apol...
  Submitted by babygirlboots on Thu, 07/01/2010 - 14:26. Comments - 0
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  Basics
  Alcohol
  I've suffered from depression pretty much all of my life. Things certainly have not gotten better lately. In the last couple of years, my father was d...
  Submitted by babygirlboots on Tue, 06/29/2010 - 10:52. Comments - 0

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