Does anyone else ever do this?
If I ever have a moment to think all I can think about is how stupid I acted that one time or how I wish I had said something different or I wonder what they think of me they must think I'm a freak. Even if they happened ten years ago I still wish I could go back and switch something I did even if I can't remember what exactly happened I just assume it was stupid and everyone thinks I'm anoying because of it. I know it sounds stupid and I will even think about what I wrote here twenty minutes from now but I can't stop no matter what even if the people I was with asure me that I was not being stupid.
I do this very often, I thought it was just me over reacting. I found it odd how I cant remember events in my life but I can remember stupid things I said or did years ago, in element school even that I wish I didnt do or could change. I makes me physically sick at times.
This all sound's so normal to me. People don't always want to hear, or care how you analyze things as far as friend's or family go. As I have said to sister or mom, what I worry about, or say and do, or how they'll react, it's become some what of a joke in the family. In a fun way. They would be exhausted by how much or how I think. I love to play the 'human nature ' card. People are so interesting how they react to things said or done, so I try to not offend anyone and feel bad after going through it in my head, how I could have done that different. I thought EVERYONE thought this way.:) I still remember all the dumb things I've done or said but I don't beat myself up over it. I know I'll never do it again. Learn to forgive yourself. I think you've been gifted with a good insight, sound's good to me. Try not to voice what you see if it doesn't help the people around you. People do what people do, it's human nature. Enjoy it!:):):)
i say the wrong thinga at times too. i think one thing and something else comes out. people look at me like i lost my mind but i try to think positive about doing better next time. try not to be hard on yourself cause everyone does this sooner or later. be happy and be positive.