bone marrow aspirates
need an honest answer, how uncomfortable is it. thinking of refusing.
Good luck, Friday on the BM bio. Anger is a normal reaction, so this is a good place to vent and gain some type of perspective on it all. Once you get your treatment going you will have something to apply that anger towards and that will help, then you will be ale to also have a sense of regaining control over your life, and a future. We all changed and are still changing, give yourself time to adjust and be kind to yourself. The stress of all this is huge so rest when you can and surround yourself with as much positive stuff and people as you can vs. negative and people who want to share cancer horror stories with you. They don't help.
Take care and let us know how you are doing,
well, 2 nd day post bone marrow asp. not fun, but not as bad as i anticipated. still i would rather not do that again! 2 days pre-port and 4 day and counting to r-chop. finally, seems like forever getting started.
Your feelings are not alone I think all of us feel/felt that way! Glad you are on the right road!