Married but, lonely
I am a 35 yesr ol woman... I have had 5 kidds 4 with me on in heaven.. I hav been married snce i was 17 to my husband.. I think i am the loniness woman on the planet.. he works all day and comes home and wants to do nothing.. I cook, clean , take care of kids, doctors, and also coac a tball team.. I am usually really busy well ia m.. but only mainly with kids.. never him.. Our 4 year old still sleeps with us due to one we live in cond ad three bedrooms and 4 kids and 2 I lost my son before him at 13 days from birth defect and attached to him..
my marriage was hard before all this after son passed i went nuts cheated with his best friend and was gonna leave him for best friend..
Thats when everything stopped.. marriage everything.. now we go to bed peck and go to sleep.. thats it.... we never spend no time together and if we do we dont have nothng to talk about..
i feel we are more like frinds or brothr and sister then husband and wife.. ia m a stay at home mom.. i am scared to say to much if he makes me leave he probably will get my kids due to i dont work.. i cant live with out my kidss.. i am just tired of criing i want some one to hld me make love to me and spend time with me..what is wrong
Hope you day is better today.
thank you so much this has helped me aot and i am sorry about your husband..we have talked until i am blue in the face.. i am giving him 1 more year and then we will see this is when my oldest turns 18.. i will give it my all in this year and if nothing i have to move on.. best wishes and thanks again..
I too feel the same, rejected.. I was always on cloud 9 thinking I have a perfect life but things changed after 20yrs of marriage i had my son after 16yrs... I have cried, written, spoken, fought, whatsapp ... nothing brought my husbands love back I feel very lonely.. nothing we share not even the bed.. I have thought of moving on but looking at my innocent child I will never ever do this.. it's so unfortunate but true.. my only suggestion is look at the kids before you take any decision.. yes we have one life and why we should live like this but... the kids didn't chose to be like this.. they are destined to be with us.. we should show them the right path.. be a light in their path.. hope one day we both can say it's a miracle my love is back..