this is hard to admit that im a thief. but in my head when i steal i jus tell my self its ok and i wont get in trouble. how do i stop this.
I am so ashamed... I have stolen thousands upon thousands of dollars from jewelry to cash. I have admitted to myself for the first time today , I am a Kleptomaniac. I finally got caught stealing $ from my aunt, ofcourse deniying it to the end. I am ready to tell the truth. I really do not want to do this anymore, I feel so low. The worst is when I look at my mother;s fingers... she is wearing a Ruby and Diamond ring which I stole. Admitting to myself today seems to be the best thing I could ever have done.
I live in Santa Barbara, there are no support groups here, I am more than willing to drive down to Los Angeles. Can anyone suggest one to me? I would welcome all the support that anyone feels comfortable offering.
Thanks for listening, Charlotte
Charlotte, I completley understand what you are feeling and how difficult, even painful it is to finally acknowledge that you have a problem. I believe, somewhere in my head, that we have a illness, some type of uncontrolable impulse genel that is somewhere in our brains like a malfunction.
There are times when I can go to a store, and tell myself that I will make it out of this store, taking nothing, and feeling great, even empowered by not stealing. However, I am ashamed to admit, that even when I don't take any item from a store, I constantly replay in my mind opportunities I missed out on to take some trivial item. The impulse to then go back into the store is so powerful. But I think about it for days, knowing that the next time I am in that store, I will become submissive to this addiction/illness/painful control that kleptomania has over my life.
I was hoping, my joining this sight that, this would be an actual support group. Until your comment post yesterday, there has been no action on this site. Like you, I live in a area where there are no support groups for this issue.
I know nothing I can say will help ease the pain, the shame and embarassment we feel. I guess I just wanted you to know you weren't alone. That your admitting to yourself that you have a problem is huge, it's a start, and it didn't go out into the empty hole of cyberspace. You are not alone.
Hi, I don't know if you are still in this site (I hope u are) but I just read your message and I wanted to see what ended up happening with ur case. I am now going thru the same I got caught for the second time and I'm waiting for my court case. I'm soo worried, I don't know what to expect. I'm soo scared I'm gonna go to jail and I can't afford that to happen. I can't afford a lawyer to give me advise. And I don't know what to do. So if u have time maybe u can get back to me and give some insights about ur experience. Thanks!