My Husband Is A Porn Addict
I am not sure how to deal with this. Emotionally it tears me apart. He has been doing porn since he was 13. He is now 23.We have two babies together...one on the way:^) I love my family so much and I don't understand why he puts himself and his addiction above his family.
I have been forgiving and trusting the past two years. For the past two years he has been so horrible to me. Always stressing me out, making me cry, yelling at me, lieing to me and not wanting to help with our 10 month old.
Recently, I went on a trip to see my family for a couple weeks. We had fought before my son and I left but had apologized to eachother. He acted as though he did not want us to leave but I knew we just needed to get away from the emotional abuse and just be happy for awhile.
I was thinking that it would be good for us to spend time apart. Then he would realize how much I do and how special we were. Driving 18 hours there and back gave me a lot of time to think. While I was praying and thinking...he was doing porn and going on a site called f***book. I looked at the web history and it said he had gone to numerous dating sites. It freaked me out all of the weird porn he was watching too.
I want to save my marriage...this porn addiction and his poor choices is ruining our family and our marriage. I want to be a good christian wife and stand by his side but emotionally it has gotten to be so much. I have kept hanging on for 2 years loving him because I keep thinking he is this wonderful person that I thought I knew....maybe he isn't? Maybe I just didn't get to know him very well...
I am not sure if he loves me...he doesn't act like it...he always wants chance after chance but doesn't change. We go to counceling and he says he is going to get professional help for his addiction.... When is enough? I am so sad....It gets hard to function sometimes...I would never do the things to him he has done to me.
I wonder if while I was gone he slept with another woman. He says he didn't but his word doesn't mean much anymore. I am scared and I don't know what to do. ???? I just wish my husband showed he loved me and our babies. I don't understand....
ANy encouragement and advice would be greatly appreciated!
I do too April...it scares me that he could be lieing to my face the whole time I think he is trying just like the past 6 months...I am just praying about it...sometimes that's all we can do:^)
Much love to you April:^)
Thank-you for your words of wisdom:^)
Adultery huh? For myself and my boyfriend, I don't see pornography as cheating. I can't, or I'd have to throw out almost every guy I've ever dated ... not to say I'd find addictive behavior to porn appealing, of course not. there's a lot not to like about it from the perspective of a spouse. but porn in moderation, that doesn't phase me. If he were interacting online with other women, then I would start to consider it adultery. Building relationships, that would tweak me. Mindless wanking, not so much. That's 'out of my hands' pun intended...
I am a christian...and as a christian I believe that it is adultery. I want my husband and I to be equally yoked and go to heaven together:^) The bible has taught me a lot of morals that I strongly believe in. I can understand where you are coming from, though.