I decided to cut myself
Today was my brother's JROTC ball. He couldn't get a date. So my mother decided that I should go with him. She knows I hate dresses and heels yet she forced them on me. I couldn't stop crying. So she yelled at me and told me to forget it and stormed to her room. My whole family was mad at me. and my brother ended up going alone. So now I think I'm a really horrible person. My punishment is a knife to my hand repeatedly.I feel horrible now. please help
It is OK that he went alone. He has friends and he will have a good time, also he will have a chance to meet someone. No need for a drama, you said what you felt and it is alright. Sometimes, mothers want to make everybody happy and do not realize that someone will become unhappy. Do not be hard on yourself. God bless you.
Hey :) I'm so sorry about what happened. Family things like that suck. I remember this summer I got into an argument with my mom because I hadn't eaten that day and it ended with everyone screaming at me and I couldn't take it. I just wanted it to stop and for them all to go away. And I cut myself. Bad. And that's how my sister found out. And now, looking back, it was so stupid. I mean, it felt like hell at the time, but I should've coped. Trust me, cutting won't help. Or rather, it's only temporary. And then it creates its own issues. And cutting more can't help. So then you've lost your big coping skill, and everything is so much worse.