Always felt left out!!!
I grew up with 4 brothers a strict father and a mother!!! My father was so strict that we got punished for the smallest things we did and my mom was very little help at all. Anyways it was always better to be away from home than dealing with my dad!!! This put a strain on my relationships with my brothers. We all did are own things and that was that!!! We hardly get together anymore. It's hard to get all 5 of us togather all at once!!! Anyways we all have different personalities and lifestyles too!!! They never took a liking to my hard rock, heavy metal, punk like lifestyle from the haircuts, clothes I wear and Devoting my time to my music and lifestyle!!! Never caring about the future and getting a real job. I always felt like the odd one out!!! The truth is I've been through too much growing up with my brothers we constantly fought a lot!!! I feel I'm better off without them!!! I have friends I'm closer with than my brothers!!! Anyways I'm just jotting down my feelings about my family!!! I just don't need them
Why should I worry about what they think and say!!! It does get to me!!! I think not having anyone to tell me how to live my life will change things for the better and the pressure would be off. Thanks!!!
Hi jasonzx, I am definitely the black sheep of my family. Many, many people have come up to me and asked me if I was adopted because they can't believe that I am part of this family. My thing is, my family wants nothing to do with me unless they can get some kind of financial gain from it. It doesn't matter that I have two kids, bills, tuition payments, etc. If they can't get anything from me, they don't even acknowledge that I'm part of the family. I've been left out of family reunions, holiday get-to-gethers, family outings, etc. I've tried to be the bigger person and forgive them for the way they treat me but it's the same thing over and over again. I have several health issues that are starting to cause me a lot of problems and could really use some support, but that's something that I can't get from my family. I feel so alone and depressed; and this being the holiday season is not making things any better.
Live your own life if you meet someone that would be an added plus but Life is too short and I know being a rocker myself we are drawn to the counterculture. Reach out an olive branch to try a relationship with your brothers its not gonna be easy if there is a lot of animosity but if you want a relationship with them let them now bare it all out. If they choose to ignore you move on family may be blood but there is so much other things stronger than blood.