Where do I even start???
Really want to cut right now, but I can't it would kill my parents if I started again...and my little brother...God, help me, I am such a fool. Why did I even start all this crap in the first place? Ugh, I feel suspended in time, like none of this is really happening and it sucks because I can't move or breathe or function and I am so very tired. So tired. When I do sleep, it is like forced autopilot, if that makes any real sense...like, I can technically sleep, but I cannot rest at all. I can't calm down, but I act calm for the sake of my family, even though I am freaking out inside. I am so scared, I don't know what to do with my life and I miss my friends but I don't really fit with them anymore and that sucks. My dog has fleas and it's bugging the hell outta me....I am sitting alone in the dark and now I can see out the window at least, but I can't get outside. I feel trapped, suffocated, but scared to death of being freed. Anxiety is awful. Agoraphobia sucks. Depression hurts, Cymbalta can help, Oh My God, now I am quoting commercials!! Somebody stop me I am going crazy!!!
thanks kc!! :)
i am fed up by life,,,,,,,,,, right now i am ok
yeah, right there with ya...it just seems like there is no point, though I know there must be some kind of reason for living...