Im all alone , i cant believe just how alone I am, I cant live like this i just dont care what happens to me anymore
How can anyone live this way ? It makes me so sad to hear everyone talk abt their Families. Their mom and dad, siblings, grandparents and I have noone. No brothers and sisters nothing. Im an orphan. Then with the divorce soon i have no husband, my kids are only with me a couple evenings a week. My bff is leaving her husband and going to stay with her parents. It made me feel so sad thinking I had no parents to go to. I wish shed move in with me. My other oldest friend lives 350 miles away and i never see her and shes so selfabsorbed its scarry. She just uses me. And thats it thats all i have left, so many friends dissapeared when stbx and I seperated and I lost his family. Im just so alone. I dont see it changing or improving ever. I cant stand sleeping alone every night, eating alone everyday, having noone to talk to. Its so quiet and I feel hopeless. I just cant bear to be alone for weeks, Years. And theres nothing I can do abt it. I wont aquire a new family. I cant make new friends im just to depressed nobody wants to be around me like that. Everytime I find a guy i like he lives far away. I feel like im just destined to be alone. I belong nowhere and to noone. I dont want to live anymore, i dont want to live out 40 years of desolate existance. I want a mom or a sister a man who truly loves me. I cant hardly believe im completly without any family. I always wanted a big family. I loved making a big holiday dinner and decorating the house and having family and friends over a houseful of ppl and slowly over the years they all went away, died, divorced, moved etc and now im alone just me and the kids and my asshole ex for the holidays and sometimes he goes to our friends w the kids and I stay home alone and cry. ( their not my friends anymore) Soon my kids will grow up and go away and that will be it completly utterly alone. How the hell does a person end up w no family ? And here my ex has a mom bro sis and cousins neices nephews and all their spouses and siblings and such and he deliberatly moved 1500 miles from them. I dont get it, id do just abt anything to have a family and he avoids his. I cant stand being so lonely i really cant and theres no way out but one
I'm here too! Instand friend, just add keyboard :)
Hi Ell, I love you. I'm sorry I can't post update on darn thread guess my name spam again. Grrrrrrrr.
I'm sorry your still feeling suffering the impact of this divorce. I hope that's not what I have to look foward to. Getting divorced after 28 years. I didnt want divorce he found mistress during my fight with cancer. He is taking everything. Our home our child. I pray in four years I'm still not suffering and sorry you are going yhrough the torture he is putting you and your vjildtrn through all i can say is im im shock I'm very religious and pray God will grant you peace and happiness. I'll update thread with more info once I'm mo longer spam. Grrrrrrrr
I love you
I will pray for you as well. I understand the confusion and being overwhelmed. Are there any church or social service assistance places you can call. They may even travel to come to you