Family Suicide Factor
Hi. When I was three years old my mom committed suicide. My dad and I found her when he was bringing me home, she used a generator in the house to get carbon monoxide poisoning. Then two years later her mother committed suicide, I didn't know till a few months ago. Then less than two months ago my older brother, someone I always looked up to and always sought respect from committed suicide. He used the same method my mom did, just with a lawn mower at his girlfriends house. Recently I have considered suicide, but I know I have too much to live for, I have also considered self-harm but I don't want to be caught by anyone. My dad has been showing signs of depression and my older sister is having other mental problems. I feel trapped. I can't run anywhere.
I am so very sorry to hear this. I could only imagine your pain. It really hurts my heart. My very first instinct is to tell you to not to run away from anything, but to run toward EVERYTHING. Take this head on. FAMILY. Maybe you and your dad and sister should come together and get into some family counseling. I am so proud of you for taking the first step in seeking help. You are not alone in this place. LIFE is beautiful even in the darkess hours. Take this as something to start turing your life into the right/healthy direction.
Best of luck and well wishes for you, my friend!
She's right, you're taking the first steps, being aware. Has there been help medically for the other's? Getting knowledge of what may be happening can only help. Sound's like you have good instinct. Hope you find the answers your looking for. Keep your chin up, you could be the one to fight this and nip it in the bud. Keep sharing, get it off your chest.
I agree, find a counselor ASAP.
One counselor I met told me relatives (nephews & niece) I had not met would be at a higher risk for suicide IF I chose that option.